Beautiful Inside and Out

I missed, for the first time ever, church because of my depression. Even on my low days I've gone. I would force myself to go and to participate. That's just what you do. But this Sunday I didn't. I let the depression win. Patrick was feeling a little sick, but really not sick enough to not go to church. 

I had an even more horrible day after making that decision.

Today, one of my students desperately needed to tell me somethig. He kept raising his hand at the most inconvenient times. When this happens I tell the kids they have to wait, and then they can tell me at a better time. Usually it is a personal story they want to share, and sadly we don't have time for them to share in class. So I assumed this little 6 year old had some story to share as well. We lined up to go to another class and he desperately wanted to tell me something. Finally as we walked through the hall I asked him what he needed. He simply looked up at me and said, "You always look so beautiful. And you are always nice." 

"Oh thank you! YOU are so nice! Did you need to tell me somethig else?" I asked.

With a wide grin, he replied, "Nope. I've just been waiting a long time to tell you that."

It was so simple and small, but it made a huge impact on me.

New home

I have never been this tired before. Exhaustion is real and I can't even think how it would feel if I were more tired. I had SEP conferences two weeks ago. 64 first graders and their parents make for a LONG two days of conferences. 8:00 am to almost 9 pm. Breaks only for lunch and dinner. Agh! But it was nice to see everyone. I love them, I just don't love that the school only gives me two days to do them. 

After conferences, I crashed. We moved the week before and my things were, and still are, scattered. It was much worse then. Nothing was put together. I felt like I had no control over anything. Now, I have had two weekends to organize and I am proud to say that the living room is done and decorated, I just need a floor rug and I can call it good. Patrick's room looks great and has most everything where I want it. That was the first room u worked on, but I want to keep adding things to it. The play room for finished today. Well, sort of. Patch and I put together 3 helps and secure them to the wall. I added books and toys to the shelves and reorganized where the toys go. I want to paint the room (it's yellow now, I hate yellow rooms) but that will have to wait. I'm thinking of doing a light gray with white designs. Then I am going to do some canvas painting with Patch to put on the walls. I think it will turn out well.

My room is still a mess. I'm in the middle of doing A LoT of laundry, but it will be ok.