Wednesday, July 9, 2014

Birthday Boy!

Patch,
Wow, I can't believe you are already a year old. You are the sweetest, most curious, army-crawling munchkin I have ever seen. You haven't mastered walking yet, but why walk when you can climb over any obstacle by just crawling? You're soooo fast.

Your birthday party was fun. We had it on your special day and you LOVED it! Nana and Papa A, Aunt Holly and Aunt Shay came. Birth Mommy would have loved to come, but she couldn't make it. She loves that you have a beautiful family and she told me she knows you are meant to be with us, but her heart aches for you to be hers still, and she wasn't sure she could be there without crying. Many memories of placing you have come up for her and so this month has been extremely difficult. She told me that some of her other birth mom friends have gone through similar feelings. I think all birth moms do. It's called grief. Grief is when you lose something that you love so dearly. Not being your mom was the hardest thing that she has ever done. She just loves you so much and I'm sure she will visit you soon. The grief comes and goes for her. We need to give her time and then when she feels better she can love on your sweet, chubby cheeks.

Uncle Erik and his kids wanted to come, but his Jeep wasn't ready yet, so he didn't have a way to drive here. He wants to visit you soon so you can see your funny cousin Kylee and silly cousin Gibson. You giggle at Kylee all the time and Gibby is only about a year older than you so you like to play together. Cousin Emma is on a trip, with her mom, so she couldn't come either.

Uncle Nik and Uncle KC had to work. Aunt RonNell, cousin Max and cousin Harper are still in Englad. Auntie Pay and Brookie wanted to come as made it half way there, but Brooklyn had a hard time and needed to go back to go to sleep early. We sure missed them all.

All of your other Aunts and Uncles from daddies side live far away, but they called and sent you happy birthday messages. Aunt Julia and Uncle Cam wanted to give you kisses as hugs. Their kids, Ryan and Makalya love you too. You would love playing with them. Ryan loves trucks and fixin things. Makayla loves cuddles and is only a year older than you.  Aunt Melissa and uncle Justin sent you a book that cousin Channing loves. He is a few months older and you guys just love playing and laughing. They all love you so much! Grandma Cecy and Papa C sent you a funny doggy card. You giggled at that. Their gift is in the mail and I'm
positive you will love it. Actually we just recovered it!! Wait.... It's a tractor you can sit on, with a tractor book. Oh boy! Your gonna love that.

The birthday started by mommy and daddy coming into your room to
sing happy birthday. You were ALL smiles. You must have been super excited because you didn't take very long naps, so you got a bit winey, but that's ok. 

Dad went to work and you and I cleaned, made you cupcake cake, went shopping for food and balloons, and I put together your truck stroller that Aunt RonNell's family got you. And oh, did you love playing in that! . 

We got you birthday balloons and you were squealing with delight as the woman blew up the bouquet of balloons. I think that was the first time you saw balloons. Your face was priceless when I tied the balloons to our shopping cart. Amazement and awe!! Your eyes lit up like fireworks. Those big blue eys!

When the family arrived we had sloppy joes, baked beans, grapes and veggies. All of your favs! You ate like a champ.

Finally it was time for cake. You were all wide eyed when Dada put the cupcake in front of you. Oh we sang to you too and you clapped and clapped. The cupcake was perfect size for you and you shoved it in your face. Dad was sooo proud. You would have eaten the entire thing too, if daddy hadn't taken the icing off the top. He said you would get a sugar overload.

After we cleaned up everything, and you everyone went home. It was just you, daddy and I. We had one final thing to do. Balloon wishing. I got the idea from a great book called "Heaven is Here". In the book the woman tells her life story about having to overcome an accident she and her husband were in and how she found to be happy on earth. That the most important thing anywhere, is her family. I agree. It's silly, the balloon thing is only barely mentioned, but it stuck in my head, so daddy and I wanted to do it every year for your birthday.

We got together as a family, had you pick a balloon from the bouquet and then we talked about what we wanted our wish to be. We have to keep it secret too! ;) it's just for us to know, but believe me, it's a good one. Then we went outside and gave you the balloon. You held on tight and didn't want to let go. But it was windy and finally the balloon slipped through your tiny fingers and up. Up.. UP... It went. You were mesmerized. No tears, no sadness. Just wonder! This was my favorite part of the day. Me, you and Daddy. An eternal family with a dream. I hope everyone can have that one day. 

I love you more than the moon, more than the stars and more than the universe! I'll always love you.

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