Eye of the tiger email

Date of time this happened: June 2016 (around that time)

 I should have written this before, but I didn't and now I have forgotten a bit. I was having a hard time with patience being gone. It hits me really hard still. It happens less, but when it does its overwhelming. As for something about me, I hate having emails that are unread. I will check my phone often to make sure that I don't have any missed emails. This time, there was always one.  It drove me NUTS! I searched each email that I had and I couldn't find where the message was. I went through every email with in the past year and it was not there. It was literally haunting me because my OCD came out. It was a few months when I has finally determined that my email/emails were broken. Then, one day I had this feeling that I should look again.  So I searched and found an email from Patience.  It was from a long time ago and I remember reading it, checking it and moving on.  So to see that it was unchecked again was a little miracle. And I have to make sure that you know that since that email, I had for a year had my inbox empty. How this happened I do not know, but I hope it came from her.  At least when it happened, I knew that it was, but I'm really having a hard time with it now since the adoption fell through.

Kissing

 We went to the 'elite' oakcrest group, Patch and I. It was at Big Boobs Mcggee's house... AKA... Mama Britt.

Thoughts:

Love her home

Chris is great for her

Met knew people

Loved them

Socialized and felt normal

Think my mess help me to act like myself

Patch is the sweetest

I miss Pay

1. Pay gave Britt her Oakcrest Name. Britt never worked at Oakcrest, but everyone lies her and she can make her way into anyone's heart.

2.Patrick was the only kid there becaus I didn't want to leave him. :) He loved playing downstairs with a motorcycle and kitchen set. He cooked us food and passed out cupcakes for everyone to eat. This also included him passion it around while hiking it with an oven mitt. CUTE!

He went pee in the potty like a big boy, because even though things are steadily, he wants to potty train himself. Then he walked around with a cute naked bum asking for praise since he peed in the potty. When it was time to clean up. He put started putting all of the kitchen toys back wear he found them. I did not prompt it. That was all his own. Then he proceeded to give kisses to EVERY object I. The house. Vacuum, kitchen, dollhouse,motorcycle, brooms, and much more. He refused to give kisses to verity because he wanted to kiss other things. Ha ha ha! Oh and we talked all about energy from solar power and wind power while driving. He was very intrigued.

3. My dad is really declining. I have made other posts, I'll have to put them in this journal. We have all been stressed, so tonight was very needed.