Eye of the tiger email

Date of time this happened: June 2016 (around that time)

 I should have written this before, but I didn't and now I have forgotten a bit. I was having a hard time with patience being gone. It hits me really hard still. It happens less, but when it does its overwhelming. As for something about me, I hate having emails that are unread. I will check my phone often to make sure that I don't have any missed emails. This time, there was always one.  It drove me NUTS! I searched each email that I had and I couldn't find where the message was. I went through every email with in the past year and it was not there. It was literally haunting me because my OCD came out. It was a few months when I has finally determined that my email/emails were broken. Then, one day I had this feeling that I should look again.  So I searched and found an email from Patience.  It was from a long time ago and I remember reading it, checking it and moving on.  So to see that it was unchecked again was a little miracle. And I have to make sure that you know that since that email, I had for a year had my inbox empty. How this happened I do not know, but I hope it came from her.  At least when it happened, I knew that it was, but I'm really having a hard time with it now since the adoption fell through.