Forgiveness

My hubby came home at 2:00 am from his late shift. I woke up and had an overwhelming feeling to hug his guts out. :) I was still sad, and am still today, but I got a good cry out, wrote in my journal and got 'some' shut eye so now I can deal with the stress of life.

He hugged me back like he did when we first realized we loved each other. And repeated over and over, "I love you." 

He then asked me if I had to go to the bathroom. "huh!" what a weird question after a hug. But he said it with a smirk so I knew something was up. An of course after someone asks you if you have to pee, even if you didn't before, the comment triggers the pee part of your brain and ya just gotta go. :) so up I got and waiting for me on our bathroom sink was a letter of 8 reasons why he loves me. I won't share those reasons. That's just for me, but I will say that it was the most well written and honest thoughts he has shared with me in a long time. It was incredible. I've read it over and over again and I'm amazed at how humble he is and how willing he is to change some things and also so willing to forgive me.

Forgiveness is key. I realized today that its okay to share feelings as long as we also share forgiveness, and I am really good at sharing feelings, but not forgiving. J (hubby) is not so good at sharing feelings, but amazing at offering true forgiveness. So maybe that's why we work so well. And hopefully we can learn from each other to become better at the parts we are week in.

Ps I'm getting my haircut today. That makes everything better.